What experiences in life have helped you most in your development?
Burnout and an abusive relationship were terrible, but I still had the most growth through bad experiences.
In a less pleasant experience I get to know myself so much better. Even though I would of course prefer to avoid such a bad experience, because it is certainly not fun. When I was in my burnout, I never thought for a moment that I would come out of it better, because I saw the negative in everything. I literally thought: work and sleep every day until I retire and then I will die. Nice and short-sighted of course, but then I really couldn’t see any further. During my bad periods I had to go to great lengths to get back on track. I was always searching for how I could make my life a little better. I am usually super positive and can handle anything, but there are also times when I am completely lost. As I am currently doing, I wrote in my blog what my voice says today.
Everyone says every time: take care of yourself. But how on earth do I do that in such a situation? My mother has just died, my cat has been put to sleep (not comparable of course, but it is both and), my father is dying, my stepfather doesn’t have much time left and I have to arrange so many things for that. And I also have a family and a job. Sometimes I really don’t know anymore. And yet I try to keep in mind that I grow through bad experiences, even all these bad experiences. Even though I can’t see the end of the tunnel at the moment. I really try to spend the little energy I have left in a day on myself, so I have to consciously choose things that make me happy, otherwise I will completely collapse and I don’t want that.