Writing Assignment: Now. #133 of 365 Days of Writing. Description: Be Crazy. Dare to Do the Only Thing There Is.
Now, now. Now I’m in a binge mode. Snacking, snacking, all day long. I can’t stop anymore. Well, I can, because I fasted the past few days. Purely because I had to break the snacking habit. And then it works, not snacking. Then I obediently drink tea all day. With the occasional cracker, soup, or piece of fruit. Really no problem at all. Except that I have a growling stomach all the time. But after two days, I was done with it and started eating normally again. Well, normally? I just went straight back to binge mode.
Now, at this moment, I’m obediently sitting with a Minneola next to me. Well, after I just found a chocolate ice cream and a hidden Mars bar in the cupboard. And fruit is just as tasty, right? I really love a Minneola! I deliberately bought a lot of fruit: bananas, apples, Minneolas, kiwis, grapes, pears, and who knows what else. And yet, every time I go looking for chocolate. It’s really terrible.
Fortunately, I haven’t started on the Easter eggs yet, because then all bets are off. Oh well, I’ll obediently eat a Minneola again now and then eat nothing more today (it’s already 9:00 PM). Hoping that tomorrow I just won’t find any more sweets, or that my brain suddenly decides: oh, I’ll have a kiwi now! Maybe it’s also due to the monthly period. But yes, giving in is also a choice, of course. And I’ve just let myself go for the past few weeks.
And I’m slim and exercise a lot, so no one would say I shouldn’t do it, but it’s not good, because who knows what it looks like inside. But that’s not even the point, I just don’t want to keep binge eating. Tomorrow I’ll obediently eat just one piece of chocolate (if I can find it) and no more. Promise!